ok, this just made my day
my heart just stopped beating for 2 seconds.
i love you mimi! 

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It has finally started.
KPOP fans are on the move.

Two things caught my attention these past few weeks: The first KPOP Convention in the Philippines & The Petition to bring KPOP Artists to the Philippines.

I've been listening to JPop and KPop since maybe, early 2000. It never occured to me that there would come a day when asian music will influence us so much that we would petition the Korean embassy to bring KPop artists here, or hold a convention for KPop music. Back then, I was contented with listening to JPop and KPop privately. Well, I would sometimes dream about going to Japan or Korea to meet the artists, but bring them here? アリエナイ(Impossible!!).

Yet, it seems we're close to making it happen. For KPop at least. What would be the consequences of that, I wonder? Probably:

- a massive increase of KPop fans all over the Philippines
- KPop is going to be played across all music stations all day long
- KPop albums are going to be pirated by Filipinos
- People would be saying "Annyeong" 안녕 left and right
- KPop merchandise will invade the local market. From Kim Bum notebooks, to So Hee dolls, to Jaebeom pillowcase.

I crossed out the worst ones, but they are going to happen eventually. Think about the Taiwanese boyband F4 and their phenomenal TV show "Meteor Garden". Think about all the stuff people milked out of the crazed fans. Whether we like it or not, Filipinos have this habit of mindlessly jumping to the bandwagon and abusing things to extreme levels. And KPop is no exception.

What made me like Asian music in the first place? It's rarity. Back in highschool, I was the only one in the class who listened to L'Arc~en~Ciel, Glay, and Utada Hikaru. Arrogant as this may sound, it was very important for me to be different from the others. I admit I still feel that way sometimes, so it saddens me that KPop is slowly going mainstream. I'm sure other fans feel that way too, and it would be hypocrite of them to claim otherwise. Sure, it's cool that more and more people are being aware of Wonder Girls and Super Junior, but to have the whole baranggay dance to Nobody or Sorry, Sorry? God, what a nightmare.

Yes, I am a selfish fan after all. (There I said it.)

Random Katy Perry post

This is from Chapter 33 of the manga "Liar Game", which by the way, will have its second season this November. Which is yay because I get to see Toda Erika again.

LOL, the guy actually said "put your money where your mouth is~"
I couldn't help but sing

OK, so I got this from news_jpop and japan_now , a survey entitled "Celebrity's arm I would use as my Pillow" ~ win! 

- RyoPi (Ryo + Yamapi) ranks 14th ~ RyoPi is
- Miura ranks 20th
- Toma ranks 3rd *clap* *clap*
- Tamaki Hiroshi lands first! I don't particularly like him, but he does have a sexy physique.

complete list here.

OK, so I thought I'd finally give "entitling an entry" a try. Did that make sense? I really can't think straight right now because first of all, I'm really hungry and second, I'm starting to feel the stress of the previous weeks' events crashing down on me in full speed. It's overwhelming. If my life's a tabloid, the front page would scream "normal girl stuck; her life's a whole blurry mess!"

I have to take a breather . いまいま, or I'll suffocate and die Is it possible to die from stress? Feel your heart stop in a snap of a finger?
Oh God, the things I would do to relieve this ever-so-clinging stress~~

If I have my own car, I'd take it for a spin with my friends and see where the road ends.
If I have lots of money, I'd feast at John and Yoko's.
If I have a time machine, I'd go back to 2005 and refuse to graduate.
If I have a boyfriend, I would make love to him right now.

もう, I'm so confused and so very tired of it all...
Things aren't working the way I want them to, and it's pissing the hell out of me Ever felt like that?
(Though you probably don't have any idea about what i'm saying~)

So I'm gonna shush it~

I am sooooo excited about Katy Perry's upcoming concert here in Manila. I can't wait to see her perform live~  So what made me like her? Her crazy outfits and love for fruit! Hahaha. No, that's not really it, hehe. Katy's amazing. She's not Lady Gaga, but she is fantastic onstage, and I want to be a part of her world somehow~ My all time favorite song of hers is of course, Thinking of You, followed by I'm Still Breathing & Self-Inflicted. I'm sure she'll perform the first one but it'd be perfect if she'll perform the other two as well.

So, see you all there! 

F*ck you Kanye West Why don't you just kill yourself?

To Taylor: People love you~ so don't worry too much about it Just like what Tyson Ritter said,  "You should just stand on your fat wallet and pile of money and cry on top of that.” (I don't want to think he's being sarcastic too or jealous~)

Kanye's probably bitter because Taylor's earning more than he is~

Thanks toitsalovestory for all the info~

Mou~ I want more Buzzer Beat now.

So I thought I'd update you guys with what I've been up to or doing lately.

( realizations, stalked a celebrity, my past habit returns, new pop group, basket ball is fun, yet another horror show... )

I'm procrastinating again, haha! :)

I originally planned to finish working on the second chapter of my project but I kind of slacked because when I went down to eat brunch, the whole family's watching ASAP and I couldn't resist to join in the fun. "Fun" meaning "making fun" of the stars of ABS-CBN :) It was a refreshing experience.

And then while I was eating a self-made aka lousy sandwich, my cousin who lives nextdoor dropped by our house and invited us for pancit and cake. Apparently, today's yesterday's my uncle's death anniversary (it's been 20+ years I think) so my cousins are having a small celebration (or so it seemed to me). Yes, I'm also wondering why in our country, we celebrate someone's death as if it was a good thing. ^^:

So I ate a lot, talked a lot, and totally forgot about my project :p

After a while we went through my cousin's old photobooks and we were found by my Mom laughing our asses off at the 80's fashion (though the skinny jeans were pretty cool). And then someone suggested playing cards. Omo, we were immediately hooked :) We started playing tong-its around four in the afternoon, and finished around 11 PM. It was an innocent game between relatives. No bets or anything (well, we used paper stars as "chips"). I was winning the first half, hehe.

Now I'm back here in the living room, blogging while watching Shooter on HBO. Quite the adrenaline-pumping film for this time of night. So I can't sleep yet! Haha. I'm going to insert 200 Pounds of Beauty and Koizora (movie) in my IPod. :)

Good morning everyone!


-love-love-love-love-love-
maanskiiiii

Whenever there's a conflict between people, say something like "this person" vs the crowd, I'm always at the top of the list as the "main suspect" or in this case, the "main bully" of the crowd even if I'm not. I don't know why. Maybe it's because of my strong personality, or the way I always hold my ground in an argument. Or because I'm too vocal whenever I find something wrong or unfair in a situation. Or simply because I don't apologize.

Be as it may, it seems that the one who ends up being the most misunderstood is me.

I've accepted this fact many, many times in the past. My best friend back in College used to tell me that people tend to misunderstand because they don't know me too well. I'd often ask her, "Where's the justice in that?" and she would simply say, "What matters is that your friends understand you."

Could I really live my life with this sort of mantra?

It's unfair that in a given situation, and when hurtful words are starting to fly left and right, the victim always thinks I have something to do with everyone else's reaction. Or I'm the one responsible for creating the conflict in the first place. And even after the situation has died down, the suspect/s revealed, it would seem to me that my relationship with the other person is forever altered. Most of the time I'd simply tell myself "I don't care", or that person doesn't matter much anyway, but there are times when I feel so depressed about the thought of "burning bridges", that I find myself wondering, "was letting go really worth it?"

I tried to change that impression, really. I tried to control my emotions (specifically anger) but somehow, I just can't "extinguish" the fire in me. And if I did manage to change, tried to be silent in a given situation, some voice will pop out and ask - is that really you?

What a dilemma. Be yourself or alienate people?

something worth noting before i go to sleep. one of the series i'm actively following these days is Bakemonogatari. for those who haven't heard about this anime yet, there are just about two things i can say: beautiful animation and unique storyline. if you're a fan of supernatural or downright weird shows (think about Ghost Hound), you may want to check this out as well.

but i'm not going to discuss the anime now (maybe later when all the episodes have been aired. i have same plans for Canaan). actually, what i want to note is this show's ending song entitled "Kimi no Shiranai Monogatari" which i've liked since the first time i heard it. finally, the single is released and i've had the chance of listening to its full version thanks to netizen uploaders. unfortunately though, not much info is available about the band "supercell". i only read from randomc that the group is composed of internet users. well, i'm not totally surprised. didn't artists like Colbie Calliat and Sung Si Kyung (South Korean ballad singer) get discovered thru the internet? it seems this is the trend nowadays.

the PV, much to my disappointment as well, only featured young and good-looking actors thrown together in a simple teenage drama, which led many to believe that this group's not interested in exposing their real faces in the public. whether the group's a bunch of good-looking or not good-looking people, i ferverently hope that they release more songs like this. i'm particularly fond of the vocals and the piano accompaniment. You can download the single here.

good night...errr.. good morning everyone!


-love-love-love-love-love-
maanskiiiii

i've been hearing a lot of comparisons between Wonder Girls and 2ne1 lately. honestly, i love both groups. still, it affects me when someone says 2ne1 is better, though i know i'm not supposed to be affected kase kanyang-kanyang opinyon lang yan. la lang, kase naman kaka-debut lang ng 2ne1 barely 4 months ago yet a lot of people claim they're already better than wonder girls (who's been in the industry for two years). i wish i could round up all of WGs amazing perfs, but in the end, it will still depend on the person. it's useless to argue.

i remember it was back in 2008 (or late 2007) when there was a huge explosion of girl groups in South Korea. 2008 was the season of girlgroups talaga. imagine, WG vs SNSD. WG vs Brown Eyed Girls. WG vs KARA. this year medyo mahina ang laban because WG left for the US, and SNSD is in the middle of their promotions (same single, nothing new). 2ne1 talaga ang pinakamalakas, probably because of Ssandara, and 4minute and T-ara only debuted much later (just when FIRE's already leading the charts). so the attention was really on 2ne1. plus, YG fans have been anticipating their debut for a while, because it was hinted that YG is going to release a female version of Big Bang.

so far, they're living up to the expectations naman. they've been constantly winning mutizens while their competitors are still struggling to steal the spotlight. OK ang energy nila on-stage. OK din ang harmony, though i think Ssandara should try harder to blend in with the group's style. she has a soft cutesy voice kase unlike the three. yes, even maknae. if she keeps this up, she won't get any parts. well unless 2ne1 changes their style. (nyaaar. i remember KARA all of a sudden). Ssandara's cute voice fits better in SNSD. She and Sica, haha!

going back to Wonder Girls vs 2ne1, i still believe the latter's better, though perhaps it's best if WG returns from the states and challenge 2ne1 in a dance/singing battle. so everyone can see and compare real-time. something like what they did back in july of 2008 when WG performed "Kissing You" while SNSD (their biggest competitor) performed "Tell Me". WG will perform "fire" and 2ne1 will perform "so hot" (no, it's not possible for them to pull off a motown song so it can't be Nobody).

whatever happens though, i hope those who do not share the same opinion will not try to bash the other group. like, if you don't like wondergirls, it's enough that you respect them as established artists. no personal insults please!!


-love-love-love-love-love-
maanskiiiii (certified WONDERFUL)

a new layout for a new me. PINK and HEARTS for love!! yeaaaaHHHHH!

what IS the new me, you might ask? actually, there are a lot of things i should have fixed a looooooooong time ago. so this episode is going to be "WHAT ARE THE NEW MEs?"

FIRST, the new me will no longer TRUST PEOPLE whole-heartedly (i know! what a shame!). TRUST should always be supported by the TRUTH. TRUTH is the simplest. only LIES are complicated. i've learned this only recently. no matter how small the office is, there is going to be that SOMEONE who's going to destroy your idea of trust.

SECOND, the new me will try to act more mature. no more rabid fangirling in front of people. it irritates most of them anyway. no more childish blogging as well.

THIRD, the new me will be more careful about her things. YES, i almost lost my newly-bought UMBRELLA again!

FOURTH, the new me will try to save money. no more impulsive buying. as soon as i receive my bonus, i'm going to pay-off my bills and hide the damn cards. i'm going to be a cash person from now on! YEAAAAAHHHHH. oh, and i won't take a cab anymore. back to public commuting. YEAAAAHHHH!

FIFTH, the new me will stop procrastinating. actually, i've seen some improvement a few days ago. i've managed to force myself do what i'm supposed to do. there's a motivation behind that actually. yes.

SIXTH, the new me will try to be friendlier. yes, i'm going to forgive that girl who elbowed me in the elevator. i heard from someone that i'm a little antisocial and that's not going to help my scorecard. it bothered me a lot, because i actually thought i'm the friendliest in the cluster. i guess i'm a chooser when it comes to interacting with people. i promise i'm going to start including ignorant people in my circle of "acquaintances".

SEVENTH, i'm going to try to RECOGNIZE AUTHORITY. only when it's DESERVED though. haha, did you honestly think i'm going to respect you anytime soon? a thousand lightyears maybe.

OK that's the list so far. i know people normally do this during new year, but you have to start at some point, yeah? and i've decided to start now.



-love-love-love-love-love-
maanskiiiii

i wasn't myself today. first, i lost my umbrella and only realized it when i was leaving for work. i knew i had it right before i stepped out of the tricycle the other night. very very sure. i even went my way in confronting the driver the following day, hoping that he'll be honest with me and return my PHP400-worth umbrella (which i only bought weeks ago by the way, because i also lost the umbrella i had before it -- about two months ago).

second, i almost lost my cellphone. i was having breakfast at McDonald's this morning and actually left the place without any clue that i lost something very important. it wasn't until a woman ran after me and waved my cellphone right at my face that i realized how absent-minded i was. to be honest, i was still thinking about my umbrella that time. i hate losing things you know, though i did not expect I'd be even more careless because of one incident. darn it. sometimes i can't help but hate myself.

i sort of reflected on my actions afterwards. first, if the tricycle driver did have my umbrella, i couldn't really expect that he'll return it to me, or even admit that he saw me holding it when i stepped inside his smelly ride. if he did, i'd be forever grateful, but people lose stuff everyday: cellphones, wallets, credit cards--things that are of greater value. if i had been more careful, or if i wasn't drunk last night, i would be more alert about my surroundings, or even feel that i've forgotten something the moment i stepped out of the tricycle. but i didn't. and everything's my fault. I HAD IT COMING, just like what they always say.

at least, someone was honest today -- that woman from McDonald's. i wonder what she was thinking while running after me (i probably already took about a hundred steps). did she consider keeping my phone for herself? did she even consider waiting for someone else to take responsibility? how could anyone choose to be responsible at moments like this? it seems everyone prefers to be indifferent these days, does it not? if the roles were switched, i'd probably choose not to notice. and what does that make me? could i be held responsible for being indifferent? on second thought, my conscience wouldn't be able to take it after all. maybe i'd also grab that phone and run after that stupid stranger who can't keep her wits about her, even after she already ate breakfast.

it's glad to know there are still honest people out there.

i've learned my lesson, and i swear i'd be most careful next time.

Nodame Cantabile is the oldest manga i've been actively following for the past 3 years...
seriously, this is the best josei manga i've ever read...
well, it's not like i've read a lot of josei manga - just a handful, you might say,
but considering i have very short attention span, it's pretty amazing i've held on to this for 3 years.

now, the story's took on a rather sad turn, because just when nodame's started facing music head on (she finally made  a debut), she ran away from the music, from chiaki.

nodame has always been a very unpredictable weirdo, it's entertaining to watch her grow.
she's really crazy. but everyone loves her, her simplemindedness, her antics, her freaking curry! haha

i wish i could be as carefree as her
and still get the best boyfriend in the world

and this is just so sad....
(though my idea of "missing someone" doesn't involve sniffing clothes)
yes, nodame really takes "smelling chiaki-senpai" seriously.

here, she was trying to fight off the pain in her stomach ^^;
(because she ate a bread-gone-bad)
chiaki's shirt is like kyoko's corn somehow
she has to inhale his smell to get through whatever's making her depressed.
yeah, i told you she's crazy.

( gyaaaaaaaaaabooooo! )

what??? another single of big bang leaked??
i so love the internet
but enough about that...

i learned a few days ago that my youngest sister is being bullied.
of course i'm pissed off. who wouldn't be?
bullies are meanies. bullies aren't supposed to exist in the world.

i don't know the exact details (my sister doesn't say much) but i think it started with her classmate gossiping about the other girl in the class (and they're supposed to be the best of friends... yeah, what a bitch) and my sister just happened to hear what she was saying. and probably, out of "pakikisama"  (fellowship) she laughed with the others.

and then the following day she got a RED CARD with "don't be a backfighter" written on it.
yeah. she's like jandi now. unfortunately she doesn't have a jun pyo to save her.

now, the whole class thinks she's two-faced.
i was like "huh?"

seriously, i'm really enraged.
i wanted to attack that bitch who placed my sister in that situation. claw her eyes out or something.
and what about the other losers who were there? they actually pretended it was my sister who spread the gossip (whatever that is)? and now they are treating her as an "outcast".

hayyyyyy. high school back in the 1990's wasn't this bad..
red card? children-of-the-corn kind of thing?

there were bullies ni my class, yeah, but majority of the people were OK. the trick is just to avoid the bully and find friends. or fight. be a bully yourself (maybe this was a bad idea though).

unfortunately in my sister's case she's fighting against a whole class of 20+. how does one deal with that? really? the pressure must be very heavy for someone her age. she's just 13 for crying out loud!

as her unnie i keep telling her to be tough, or act like one . i tried to be nice whenever i get home from the office, but usually she's busy with homework, or already sleeping . i really want to help her get over this problem, but she's already decided to switch schools after a year. that's not a totally bad idea but i guess i don't like the thought of letting her classmates get the best of her. i really hate being a loser. i wish i could imprint some of my willpower and stubborness to my adorable little sister, but she's always been the timid one among the five of us. it's not like her to confront others, or stand up and fight. whenever i think about that, i get so depressed . somehow i feel responsible for her becoming so.... yielding. i think it's because i always tell her what to do, where to go, that at some point she just developed this "fold and cave-in" personality.

and now she's being bullied by 20+ eggheads. whatever happened to "unity, love, and peace" that this catholic school is so determined of advocating among students and parents?

if this gets worse, i'm going to go that school, grab that little bitch by the hair and drag her outside with her mother.
and then we'll see who's the real bully.

hmm, i really don't know where to start
lots of things happened this past week and i haven't even started talking about the stuff that happened the week before that!
anyway, the highlight of my life at this time is qt!

(qt stands for... omg i forgot. quality team? it's like a project -- just to explain very briefly.)

YES, it's about time i work on my paper.
(you could say i'm a late bloomer)

i'm not talking about college thesis or whatever you call it these days
i'm talking about promotion paper!

seriously, i've been playing around for far too long
it's time to get serious!
no more procrastination!
i have to get, grab, take, & seize what i really deserve!

i have to get promoted this year.
this year.
not next year.
not the year after.
this FCKING YEAR!!!!!!!!!

and so i've come up with this mantra which i have to start saying as soon as now!

procrastination is my enemy.
i can't be lazy.
i won't let people get in my way.
i won't get disheartened.
if i get stuck, or find myself a dead end -- i'll break the walls down with my fists (i got this from a manga)
i won't stop until i've done everything.
i'm smart. i can do this.
i will succeed.

if i achieve my goal this year...
magpapainom ako! wahahahahaa!

-love-love-love-love-love-
maanskiiiii

oh yay, big bang has a new japanese single!
it's called my heaven, and it's so cool!
hindi ako mahilig sa rnb, seriously
pero pag songs ng big bang or dbsk
talagang naaaliw ako..

maybe because they're SO HOT
and i always imagine them dancing slutty dances and flexing muscles
lalo na si tae-yang, kapag nilalabas na nya abs nya
ayyyyyyyy

in another news, lately naa-addict na rin ako sa song na "fire" ng 2ne1
actually, hindi ko masyadong nagustuhan yung song the first time i heard it
mas gusto ko lollipop!
told you, hindi ako mahilig sa rnb, seriously

then i had the chance of watching 2ne1's live perfs..
aliw!

naaliw ako sa split ni minzy!
and super energetic nila, especially chae rin.. hehe
at dahil dyan favorite ko na sila ngayon. (habang nasa states pa ang WG)
omg nandyan na rin pala ang 4minute.. hmm compare compare, haha

teka, tapos na rin pala ang k-on! well may extra episode pa pero the series is formally finished. haha
ang cuuuutee! better than lucky star, imo
(though di naman sila dapat i-compare masyado hehe)

ok, so hindi naman talaga ako nagblog ngayon to talk mainly about fangirl stuff..
i originally planned to tell you guys something about my day

oh well..
sa mga nakakakilala sakin personally
it goes without saying that i had a very very tiring day today
SL ang team leader kanina, and since ako ang pinaka-senior sa team (ouch)
ako yung nag-admin work. omg, ang hirap
bugbog talaga, mentally and physically
it seems SL pa rin si leader tomorrow because she has a very high fever the other day and i think she needs to take the swab test na..
at nagpupuyat ako ngayon di ba?. haha. バカ

no, i'm just trying to relax my mind, really!
minsan kasi nagka-catch up yung stress at kailangan ko ng breather!
internet! manga! food! tae-yang!

... ah, lately nga pala tinapos ko na yung proposal daisakusen
very niiiiiiiiiceee! yamapi = ichiban love.
at love ko na rin si nagasawa masami. sa last friends ko sya unang napanood at bagay sila ni rukia haha

btw, up na ang summer 2009 prev sa randomc!

o sya, enough nonsense! true blood marathon muna.


-love-love-love-love-love-
maanskiiiii

sa wakas..
i've finally got the laptop i want
Dell Inspiron 1420..
intel core 2 duo, 2 gig memory
250 hd
windows vista home premium
blah blah blah blah..

i did mention i was so depressed these past few days
i guess nawala na yon dahil sa laptop na to
lame i know but..
tech stuff make me happy (what can i say?)

( show me the pictures goddammet! )